Saturday, April 26, 2008

Burying alive

"Bhool jaao mujhe..."

How easy is it to forget your dearest friends?
Your friends with whom you have lived the moments you would never be able to experience again, with whom you have fought over craziest of things and found happiness in even that, with whom you have shared the deepest secrets of your life...

How easy is it to forget someone who you have loved more than yourself?
Someone with whom you have seen the life of your dreams..someone who would take you to the land of the fairy tales where everything would be just perfect, that special someone whose voice brought smiles to your face and whose touches arouse all your sentiments.

How easy is it to forget people who have affected your life even in the slightest terms? . When someone dies ,you have no other choice but to forget them gradually, because you know they are not coming back,never. But the problems start when you are asked to bury them alive ! In spite of the fact that coincidences may occur when you can meet them again or they may get back to you sometime, you are asked to tell yourself that you never ever knew them................You meet as strangers, then you start finding solace and happiness in the strangers' company, you start looking into future; with some of them you share the moments that would last till the end of your life, yeah, they are no more strangers to you. You start believing that it was all God's conspiracy to bring you together, you actually never were strangers, it was just that your brains could not recognize each other, and then the souls talked, and talked to each other. Yeah, you were never strangers!

I have met many people complaining about the same thing, "Yaar, main use nahi bhool paa raha (I am not able to forget that person)." I always wondered what they really meant by not being able to forget the loved ones. Do the memories they had together haunt them? Does their faces flash off when they are all alone? What happens to me when I try to forget someone? As I prep myself for a new life, the new life, I try to find answers to all these questions, questions that have always remained unsaid and untalked. Well, no faces flash off in front of my eyes. No memories haunt me. But still there is something that makes me uneasy. As long as I am in company of others, I do not generally get reminded of them. Its only when I am alone that they come into my mind. Should I stop being lonely ? Should I always be engaged with somebody or something? That is so not possible. Will they be haunting me forever or will it stop after sometime? What should I do? Should I stop doing things that we liked to do together that made us happy? Should I stop singing/listening to the song that she liked so much or should I stop writing poems? I do not have the slightest of clues. But one thing that I know is that I should be ME. I think, the more we try to forget them the more they will haunt us. So,better not pretend that we don't know them. "Let it be like that...", I guess this may help overcome such memories. People will come and go, we have to live with that. Life moves On! I still do not know what it really means, but I guess I need to understand the same, yeah, Life moves On!

On the lonely streets we find them
Strangers, as they are referred to
We give our hearts to some of them
And also love, so precious and true
As it grows further, One fine day
"Forget me!", they say to you
And they leave your hands on the way
Fly away,they leave you blue....

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